Are you kidding me? I'm the perfect candidate. I'm no. 1. Don't you get rid of 201 not 01? She said she was sorry and I could participate with the practice but the cost would be up to me. I had a schedule of all the times I'd me meeting with the study and the co-pays would cost me a fortune along with the cost of the meds.
I must be strong in my faith with Jesus. I try not to wear my emotions on my sleeve. I must trust and believe God has a plan, purpose and reason for this dreaded disease. I was surprised. He was not. He hasn’t kicked me to the curb. He has sent me on a different path. Oh that I may be pleasing to Him. The Lord was speaking to my heart about not having a defeatist attitude. My anger has finally left me. Still having anxiety, though. I thought God had opened a door for me by going to the study and trial and now the door just slammed in my face. I once again know that God is in control of my life. What is the definition of faith? Hebrews 11:1 defines it as “the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” We may not understand the way something really works. How can a computer or phone for that matter transfer our voices and information via unseen lines or by a satellite up in the sky and across the ocean? I know it just works. It’s the same way with the Lord. He is working on our behalf even though we don’t understand or see what He is doing.
I must praise Him in the midst of what seems to be madness. I must stand in the gap for others and not continually have a woe is me attitude or be cynical toward everyone else’s life or comparing my life to theirs. God is working in my life. Yes, I don’t see it. Philippians 2:13 states “For it is God who is continually working in you. He is interceding to the Father on my behalf”. Don’t be discouraged!
Thanks for stopping by and until next time….I stand still on the still waters. Diane

I had gone to the practice doing the study and was given a 22 page packet of what to expect each week and the office visits. Yikes!! I was scheduled for a liver biopsy the end of March 2009. I was called and told that the pharm. company wanted me to move it up sooner, as they were anxious to have everyone get started. We would only be known as a number by the pharm. company, as no names would be mentioned. And my number happened to be 0001dwc. I'm no. 1, numero uno, I am the first on the list! There are 199 more people on this list after me. So now I am scheduled for March 27,2009 for the liver biopsy.
I got a call from the office telling me that the pharm. company is anxious to get everyone started and to have me move my biopsy up 2 weeks. It is a week before and my anxiety is kicking in high gear knowing in 2 days after the biopsy I'd be starting the interferon and the side effects would be attacking me 1 or 2 days after my injection.
A week before the scheduled biopsy I get a message on my cell phone that they had over enrolled and that I was being dropped from the study! I was totally freaked out and hysterical as soon as I got off the phone….
Thanks for stopping by and until next time….I stand still on the still waters. Diane